APRIL 1, 2012

 

DEAR One,   

 

I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS THAT I WANT TO SHARE. I FEEL FLOODED WITH NEW INSIGHTS. LAST WEEK, I HAD A CATARACT REMOVED FROM MY RIGHT EYE.  I EXPERIENCED THE SURGERY AS A MIRACLE.

 

''WHAT IF A MIRACLE IS NOT JUST SOME CONCEPT, BUT SOMETHING WE'VE PROMISED TO LIVE.' '

                                         PAT RODEGAST

 

WHAT IF EVERYTHING MY TEACHER EMMANUEL HAS EVER SAID IS TRUE?

 

WHAT IF THERE IS ONLY A DENSE LENS THAT KEEPS US FROM SEEING CLEARLY?

 

WHAT IF ONCE WE CONSCIOUSLY REMOVE THE OPAQUE LENS OF FEAR, THE TEACHINGS OF THE GUIDE AND EMMANUEL BECOME OUR REALITY?

 

WHAT IF?

 

CAN YOU IMAGINE THIS POSSIBILITY?

 

 

I SIT AND EXLPORE THIS VAST NEW ARENA.  MY HUSBAND''S EYES ARE ROBIN'S EGSS BLUE, NOT GRAY.  I CAN READ THE INSTRUCTIONS ON ALL THE CANS I BUY WITHOUT A MAGNIFYING GLASS. THE SKY IS A RAINBOW OF THE MOST INCREDIBLE COLORS, AND THE SUN...THERE ARE NO WORDS TO

DESCRIBE GOD'S PALETTE.

 

IT IS A MIRACLE.  I CAN NOW SEE THE LIGHT THAT HAD BEEN COVERED BY THE LENS OF FEAR.

 

IN  GRATITUDE,  I SIT AND EXPLORE MY NEW UNIVERSE.  HOW CLEAR EVERYTHING HAS BECOME WITHOUT THE DENSENESS OF THE VEIL OF FORGETTING.  THROUGH THE VISION NOW

RESTORED IN MY RIGHT EYE, MY VIEW IS CLEAR AN UNCOMPLICATED. 

 

YES!  BUT MY LEFT EYE SEES NOTHING OF WHAT THE RIGHT EYE HAS OPENED TO SEE. EVERYTHING IS FUZZY, UNCLEAR, AND VERY LIMITED.

 

THIS IS A METAPHOR FOR WHERE I AM TODAY.  I AM NOT YET WILLING TO SEE IT ALL CLEARLY. I AM USED TO THE FOG. I SEE THROUGH THE LENS OF HABIT, I AM STILL ATTACHED TO THE FEAR OF LETTING IT ALL GO, AND TO SURRENDER TO THE LIGHT. 

 

WHO WOULD I BE IF I AM TO WITNESS MYSELF IN THE JOY OF BEING TOTALLY PRESENT AND KNOWING WHO I AM?

 

WHY THEN...FOR NO REASON, WHY THEN DO I CHOOSE TO SEE THROUGH THE LENS OF HISTORY...INSISTING ON THE SELF -LIMITATIONS, BELIEVING IN THE LABELS OF SELF DEPRECATION, BELIEVING IN THE "DARKNESS" IT IS MY HABIT. IT IS MY ADDICTION.

 

FOR MY 79TH BIRTHDAY, I HAVE DECIDED TO HAVE THE OTHER CATARACT REMOVED.  I WANT TO LIVE THE REST OF MY LIFE REMEMBERING WHO I AM .  I BELIEVE THAT THESE CATARACTS HAVE BEEN A PHYSICAL  MANIFESTATION OF MY REFUSAL TO BE IN THE "LIGHT" AND TO LIVE THAT   "ALL THERE IS LOVE."

 

JUST BEYOND THE VEIL IS THE KNOWING THAT I AM WHOLE AND COMPLETE.

 

I OFFER YOU THIS MEDITATION.

 

PLACE YOUR HANDS GENTLY OVER YOUR HEART CENTER and CONSCIOUSLY BEGIN TO BREATHE " IN AND OUT.... GENTLY", AND WITH EACH DEEPENING BREATH ALLOW YOURSELF TO RELAX.

 

BEGIN TO REFLECT ON SOMEONE WHO YOU ARE GRATEFUL FOR.

ALLOW THIS FEELING OF GRATITUDE INTO EVERY CELL OF YOUR BODY.  AS YOUR BREATHE THIS EXPERIENCE INTO EVERY PORE PERMIT THIS GRATEFULNESS AND LOVE TO INCREASE AND ALLOW THIS ENERGY TO FLOW THROUGHOUT  YOUR BODY.

 

ARE YOU WILLING TO EXPERIENCE THAT THERE ARE NO LIMITS TO YOUR LOVE?

 

SEND THIS BREATH OF GRATITUDE TO EVERYONE WHO YOU LOVE AND THEN OUT INTO THE WORLD, AND THEN INTO INFINITY AND BEYOND.

 

THIS IS HOW GREAT YOUR LOVE IS.

 

ARE YOU WILLLING TO ACCEPT THAT YOUR LOVE IS THIS BIG, THIS UNLIMITED?

 

BEYOND THE LENS OF FEAR THIS IS WHAT YOU HAVE COME TO KNOW AND TO LIVE.

 

                THIS IS YOUR LIVING PRAYER.

 

I WISH YOU ALL A REBIRTH IN THIS HOLIDAY SEASON.

MAY WE ALL FIND OUR WAY HOME AND KNOW THAT LOVE IS THE PATH.

 

THANK YOU TO all who have helped me to reach this place, and

ESPECIALLY TO Dr. Robert Del Pero for lighting my Path.

 

IN LOVING GRACE,

 

BARBARA