"Our
only choice is whether to awaken now or later."
My
question is: What keeps us from insisting on the dream of
wounding, and of separation? When Spirit promises Bliss and Joy, why do
we insist on struggle and suffering?
There
were so many thoughts that evolved into experiences while I was
teaching in Bahia that were powerful and transformational:
especially the fact that " I create from what I think."
This is not a new thought, and it needs commitment and
discipline to come to fruition.
Why
then do I insist on the belief in separation and that my fear is real.
Why do I submit to this thought, rather than choose to create from my
eternal consciousness? Why do I choose not to remember my
true identity in G-d, and not to receive his gifts? I kept
hearing:
"time to wake up... and time to serve me."
"time to wake up... and time to serve me."
I felt as
if my mind was a billiard table, each ball on it a thought careening
into another thought.
How do I
connect all of this?
I
remember to breathe... and each conscious breath connects me with G-d.
My whole journey was about choosing G-d... to be
present and to breathe.
The module I was
teaching was:
Beyond Words:
Inspired by G-d.
This
time, this letter feels as if I am writing my love letter to myself,
rather than to you. The questions I have asked... I have asked before,
but this time I have received answers and the answers are clear to me.
My
experience in Bahia was a gift, a gift to deepen my faith, and to
deepen my practice. I surrendered. I let go of my expectations
and of my agenda. I let go of the hand of fear. Each day, I offered my
self, moment by moment, and this prayer to G-d.
Dear
G-d,
Please be
with me, I want to feel your presence in everything.
I want to
feel your light within me.
I want to
hear your voice guiding all of my choices.
I sense
my heart being held in your hands, and opening to your gentleness.
Each day
another miracle of love presents itself to me.
The
greatest miracle of all is my self love, and the
knowing
/experience that Love has no opposites.
In
gratitude, in Grace,
I send
you all my love.
I wish
you the Christ Consciousness this holiday,
and an
open heart for 2014
Here I am
...on my knees.... thanking G-d for my life and for walking this path
of love with you.
Wishing
you the Holiest Christ mas ever.
Barbara.
If you have any questions or would like to
engage in a conversation please call or email.
I offer private intensives, and group
retreats.
I am available for "mentoring."