September 2016

Dear One,

This has been a stunning time for me.  A wake up time.  Everything I ever thought or believed has been challenged.
I feel as if I am undefendedly open to everything since Adriano transited home.
Questions... so many questions  What is love?  What is life?  What is the truth?  What is happiness?
What are boundaries?  Is there life after this life?  What is the purpose of this life?   What am I feeling?  Where is this anger coming from?  What is the shame connected to?  Is there guilt? 
On and on and never any relief until the day I had to take a full body MRI.  What an experience!
The only way I could stop my fear of being enclosed (entombed alive) was to breathe.
Slowly I started to breathe in the love...and out the fear.  I am not good at doing two things at once...I had to focus on the breath
and close down the brain. (EGO working overtime)
It was a miracle.  My mind stopped.  I rested in G-d's embrace and became his breath.  It was beautiful.

This was the experience of my month. I needed to quiet my mind and to allow and to accept fully each feeling that was knocking on the door of my heart to be let in. I have read the poem below many times, and it has offered me comfort.
Now I understand the words on an even deeper level.

The Guest House
~ Rumi

"This being human is a guest house,
Every morning a new arrival

A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness as an
unexpected visitor.

Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they are a crowd of sorrows
who violently sweep your house
empty of furniture,
still treat each quest honorably.
He maybe clearing you out for some new delight.

The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.

be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent as a guide from beyond."

With all the love in the universe I ask you to do this no matter how painful.  Consciously Look at what this "guest" is bringing to you.
Are you willing to name him and invite him in?
This is what I have doing... allowing myself to marinate in Rumi's words.
The death of my husband has become my most precious teacher.

I believe that those of you who read my Love Letters are walking a specific Path with me.
This was sent to me by Archangel Michael. (Ronna /Sacred Scribe) and I want to give it to you.
The first time I read it in May 2010 it had no meaning for me.  I was not ready then.

"....You agreed to come to earth during these momentous evolutionary times and to incarnate into greatly diverse and often very difficult circumstances. You made a pledge that when the time came for you to step onto the path of ascension, you would allow us to set aside your free will so that we could take whatever measures were deemed necessary to awaken you...."
(These are what we refer to as the tragedies of life...but when looked at from this point of of view...these challenges are what opens our hearts to ourselves, to each other and to G-d.)
 Some of my dear students are experiencing this right now.

I am ready to see this now.  Are You?

Are you willing to inhabit the "COSMIC FORCE" that you already are and bring love to where love is not?
Love and fear cannot occupy the same space...this is when you must stop the tyranny of the ego. This is what the teaching is all about...
we must consciously choose to let go of the hand of fear and to remember whatever the outcome:  We are safe.

One more writing that I have read over and over and now I know from my inside out what it means.
A dear friend who moved away gave me a statue of St. Francis.  He is now in front of the entrance to my home, and indeed his words are standing at the entrance of my heart.

Prayer of St. Francis

Make me an instrument of your peace.
Where there is hatred let me sow love,
where there is injury-pardon
where there is doubt-faith
where there is darkness-light
where there is despair-hope
where there is darkness-joy,
Divine Master, grant me that I may not
so much seek to be consoled,
as to console,
to be understood as to understand,
to be loved as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive,
It is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
It is dying that we are borne into
Eternal life."

I will finish this letter with a quote from Marianne Williamson:
"The soul is programmed for greatness of mission. When we are dissociated from that ray of light, we descend into darkness. Much unhappiness in this world is due to the fact that people are failing to perform the greatness of their missions.  Each of us has a mission for each of us is a child of G-d."

It is in  the remembering that we are:  "I AM THAT I AM" that our peace resides.

Emmanuel has said there are no new words... no new teachings.
I have shared with you,the most beautiful and meaningful words that have awakened me in this time of loss.
I want to remember why I am here and what I am capable of.
I say  the St. Francis prayer every morning and night.
Join me and let us say it together as we attune our minds to love.
In great gratitude, I see my life as an expression of G-d's will.

Grace is my daily bread,