June 2019
Dear One,
A dear friend gave me, for my 86th
birthday, the book:
Nearing 90
and Other Comedies of Late Life by Judith
Viorst.
I remember the first book I was
given written by this author:
It's Hard to Be Hip
Over 30 and Other Tragedies of Married Life.
Each book contained a message for
me. There are so many memories. Where did the time go? Now there is
another chapter to consciously enter into.
"Coming
to terms with not feeling thrilled about dying.
Watching
over the people I love.
(Grateful
they're watching over me as well)
Enjoying
whatever there is to enjoy until that final,
time's
up closing bell.
And
hoping -- just a reminder -- that I'll be remembered."
Moving to Florida, and starting a new life has brought
many questions: How do I see this life? What is important to me?
"Just
play. Have fun. Enjoy the game."
and another quote from Mary Oliver:
"Tell
me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?"
Both are essential since they
express the way I have lived my life.
I want to live this precious life
breath by breath, challenge by challenge, diving into the pain, feeling
it all, and accepting that by going through the necessary losses, I
will choose love instead of fear, and become the creator of my life
rather than the victim.
I look back at my life...
and I am grateful for the choices I have made. I remember with great
gratitude that this is not a random universe, and I am held safely in
G-d's arms.
I love this poem by Terri St. Cloud
Dear G-d,
My intention is to be with you,
Help me to let go of the fear that is a toxic habit,
and be the being that serves you with an opened heart.
May I be the paint brush that creates a canvas of love.
I love this poem by Terri St. Cloud
"My
eyes close and I can feel "IT" --
pulling
my soul back to where it longs to be.
I
can hear "IT" -- over
and over telling me to open to "IT"
still
the fear tugs until the struggle becomes too much.
And
then, once again, I release into "IT,
Falling,
Falling,
I
brush the fingertips of G-d."
Join with me in this prayer:
Dear G-d,
My intention is to be with you,
Help me to let go of the fear that is a toxic habit,
and be the being that serves you with an opened heart.
May I be the paint brush that creates a canvas of love.
Amen,
Barbara Azzara (AKA Glabman-Cohen)
Please listen to the
song: